Health issues can be like gasoline on an already burning fire if your faith is starting to buckle. That is exactly what happened to me all those years ago when a fertility struggle unexpectedly walked into my life, jerrycan in hand. (See Post 9). Fuel met flame and an inferno raged. However, strange as it…
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#34. Chiari Malformation Story
Getting diagnosed with Chiari Malformation usually comes with a story. This is mine… Back in the summer of 2020 I started experiencing a lot of vague dizziness and headaches that were hard for me to describe. After a few annoying weeks of this I decided to schedule an appointment with my primary doctor. She wasn’t…
#33. I Heard God Say…
“I heard God say to me…” What was your honest gut reaction when you read that part of my last post? Did you immediately roll your eyes and mutter something under your breath like “Oh yeah, sure you did.” Or, perhaps it was a little more snarky like “Oh, you’re hearing voices now, huh?”. Because…
#32. Jeremiah 29:11: The Verse I Love to Hate
If you’ve been in a Christian circle for any amount of time, you’ve surely heard Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (NIV) I feel like it’s a nice thing to…
#31. The Question I Never Thought to Ask God
I’m never short on questions when it comes to my faith. But, there was one I never thought to ask God until things were at their worst. During my dark years (see phase 3) I came to believe God was in fact real…but beyond that everything was completely blank…silent…empty. I had no idea what to…
#30. Actually, I Can’t Share My Story With You
Wait…what? You read that right. I can’t share my story with you. Why? Because this is MY story and you can’t have it. Just because I’m sharing my story with you here, doesn’t mean I’m sharing my story with you. You can’t take it or borrow it or otherwise claim it as yours. This one’s…
#29. I Told God to Prove it…and He Did
If God was real, I wanted Him to prove it. He saw this fight I was trying to pick with Him. But He didn’t rebuke me or punish me for what some might call an irreverent way of speaking to the Lord God Almighty. Rather, He rose to the challenge and set out to play…
#28. The Surprising Thing That Made it Worth It
There was only one thing that made my struggle worth it. (And no, it wasn’t the ability to finally conceive a child.) For a long time I was absolutely convinced there was no way it was worth it. I figured no amount of pain and heartbreak was worth whatever it was God was selling. Nothing…
#27. Is Christianity Worth The Trouble?
Do you ever wonder if your faith is even worth it? In 2016 faith unexpectedly became a part of my life again. But, it wasn’t a smooth-sailing, happily-ever-after sort of thing that followed. My struggles and questions didn’t just magically disappear. Oh no, they were still right there with me making sure I kept my…
#26. From Juice to Wine
Simple stories. Colorful pictures. Catchy songs. Animal crackers and juice. This is exactly what I got growing up in Sunday school. The God I learned about in my classroom was colorful and fun and meant to be approachable. He always seemed to have big, friendly eyes and a huge, warm smile. He was depicted as…