You really shouldn’t read my blog. At least, that’s what I used to think when I first decided to start a blog to share my story.
Let me explain why…
I grew up in the Christian faith, but honestly the last 12 years or so have actually been a major struggle with it that I never anticipated. I’ve wrestled more than I’ve rested and I’ve rejected more than I’ve accepted. As a result, I’ve experienced a lot and I have an honest story worth telling. Writing has helped me process everything that has happened and I’m excited to share my story with you.
But you know what? Fear can be a sneaky little thing and shortly after deciding to start this blog it crept in and ‘helped’ me come up with a list of reasons why I probably shouldn’t do this. You know, things like:
– You’re not really a writer.
– Who do you think you are to call yourself a writer/blogger?
– You don’t even know how to blog.
– You didn’t go to school for this.
– What will your friends & family think?
– What if people don’t like you?
– You’re just not qualified.
The list goes on and on. Impostor Syndrome is real and is in full effect over here. I’ll just get that out in the open right now. So, as excited as I am to launch this blog and share my story with you, you have to know that there is absolutely a bit of fear and doubt and uncertainty mixed in.
However, something I’ve learned from author and speaker Christy Wright, is that sometimes you just have to do things scared. Sometimes, you just have to acknowledge that you feel afraid, but then do it anyway. It became very clear to me a few months back that fear is not a reason for me not to do this. So for now, it looks like I’m just going to have to do this scared and work through it as I go along.
But this is something you can relate to, can’t you? I mean, I think we all are faced with things that we know could be really great, if only we would push through the fear and just do the thing scared. Because then as you get over that hurdle, you get the little boost of confidence you need to help you get over the next one, and then the next one…and so on and so forth.
So, there you have it. Now you know the biggest reason for why I shouldn’t do this is fear. But there’s something even bigger and stronger than that in my heart that is the real driving force behind why I’m going to do this anyway.
To be continued…
I’m here and so looking forward to hearing more! “Fear he is a liar, he will take your breath, stop you in your steps”. Song by Zach Williams. God Bless you in your new endeavor!!💕💕
Thank you so much!! I’m so excited to get this things going!
So excited to follow you throughout this journey❣️ 😊 Lynette
Thanks so much Lynette! It’s gonna be a fun journey for sure 😉
Imposter Syndrome…I just signed up online to learn more about this. I am paralyzed by fear and low self-confidence. It’s making me physically, spiritually, and emotionally ill. Thank you for sharing your story and your fear here. I want to be released from this bondage I have, as I know it’s not Christian to worry.
Fear is such a punk!! You’re gonna love my next post I’ll be posting on Monday. I’ll teach you the line I use when talking to my fear. I’m so excited to have you along on my journey here!
OOH! Girl!!! It’s finally happening!!! Can’t wait to watch the story continue!!! (such a teaser ending too!) <3
OOH! Girl!!! It’s happening!!!!! Love it! And, can’t wait for the story to continue! (such a tease that ending was….)
Yes, yes it was…haha
You have a great start on your blog. Fear can be paralyzing, I have been there and I survived,. You will too and you will grow with each blog- you will surprise your self.
Thank you so much, Nancy!
Love your mentioned Christy Wright’s ideas. Doing something when you’re scared is so hard. I didn’t realize there were so many things on the other side of fear. I’m figuring it out more and more everyday that I’m holding myself back because of fear, not from being realistic, but from utter fear!
Yes! I’m slowly learning that much of what I want is right there just on the other side of my fear. Fear is such a punk!