#3. Christianity Doesn’t Always Stick

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I became a Christian at a young age but left the Christian faith as an adult in 2008. 

In 2016, I rediscovered the Christian faith in a whole new way.  Now, I’m writing about my story. 

My entire blog is about me filling in the rest of this story.  And believe me, there is a whole lot that needs to be filled in.  There was a time in my life when I was so sure about Christianity.  I was convinced it would be the solid ground I would always stand on.  

Then, things really went sideways and I found myself rejecting it and trying to erase it all from my life.  My firm foundation seemed to crumble and give way right beneath my feet. It was something I didn’t see coming and I never dreamt was even possible.  Things got worse before they got better. Then, things got dark…real dark.  

However, as I have now witnessed firsthand, even the darkest night eventually has to bend its knee to the light of a new day breaking.  

As this new dawn began breaking in my life, I actually found myself missing God for the first time in my life.  Like an old friend who I hadn’t seen in ages, I longed to reconnect with him.  Though guarded and cautious at first, the more I desired to actually know what was real and true about God and who He is, the more real and true He became, and continues to become.  What I have seen is completely changing my life.  

All the things I’ve seen, and the things I continue to learn, is what I’ll be sharing with you as we go along here.  Because I know there are other exhausted, weary travelers out there who are struggling with their faith and with what they believe.  They’re the ones who just gotta know what’s up ahead around that next bend and if it’s even worth the effort it’s going to take to get there.  

While I certainly don’t consider myself to have arrived anywhere, I can tell you that I have made it around a few bends and that, though the journey be long and grueling, I’m telling you that it’s worth it.  

Easy? No.  Unfair? Sometimes.  Worth it? Absolutely.     

So friend, if that sounds like you, keep going.  I can’t wait for you to see what’s around your next bend.

14 thoughts on “#3. Christianity Doesn’t Always Stick”

  1. “Though guarded and cautious at first, the more I desired to actually know what was real and true about God and who He is, the more real and true He became, and continues to become.”

    Gosh, I just LOVE this piece from the blog. It makes me think of my experience as well. When I first got into the faith, I was asking a LOT of questions- some of which made others a little uncomfortable, because I wanted to know EXACTLY what I was missing out on. I did NOT hold back. God is the most multi-faceted being to ever grace the Earth, so knowing Him takes a lot of time and effort! The more you know Him, the more you realize there is yet to know. He is like an infinite maze where you keep running into the same parts of the maze, just trying to get to the end- Heaven 🙂 You may find yourself coming back to that one specific part in the maze, frustrated and a little overwhelmed- “AGAIN? I was JUST here.” Sometimes it truly can feel hopeless, but that is because we haven’t turned to God; it isn’t until we evaluate WHY we are in this part of the maze, to ask God why have you brought me here again, that we can truly stop being lost in the maze and figure out the riddling ways of the maze. He is so great that whenever we come to Him with something, no matter how big or small it is, He provides gentle yet extremely effective guidance.

    When we feel hopeless, it can become very hard to connect with Him, because we are in those moments lacking the persistence it takes to pursuit Him; He doesn’t align with hopelessness, for He is HOPE! We are seeking our own hopelessness when we allow it to overcome our hope. If we can be defiant against our own will with this, He will burst a ray of light into our hearts and make us whole again.

    Thank you for sharing Christine!!!!!!! I love your posts- sorry I missed this past weeks. I am looking forward to seeing next weeks 🙂

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    2. Thank you so much for all of your comments Alexa! I’m so glad you’re here and following along 🙂 Your comments encourage me so much as I dive into this whole blogging adventure 🙂

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  2. Thank you Christine for your honesty. How refreshing. It’s not always easy, but I agree 100%, it’s worth it!!!

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  3. Hello, I am here and love it !!!!! Cannt wait to read more and know this blog/ story will help anyone who is reading along with myself . Thank you for being strong and Real !!!!

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  4. I have read your blog and agree that having faith is not always easy. Thank you for reminding all to keep the faith.

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    1. Hi Nancy! I’m so glad you’re here and following along! This story is only getting started…;) And about ‘keeping the faith’, I would only encourage someone to do that if they’re honestly satisfied with the faith they have. If not, then sometimes it’s best to let it go so they can have two hands to dig with to dig down deep to find the thing their heart is truly after. But, I suppose I’m getting a little ahead of myself here ;)…

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      1. THIS THIS THIS! This comment holds so much truth. If we cannot have all eyes on Jesus as we learn about Him, it becomes a cheapened experience. That is how later on down the line things become rockier because the foundation we built our faith on wasn’t filled with worship to begin with. I fully believe being present with the Holy Spirit is the most essential aspect of learning about who He is.

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